I fucking miss her

So bad

You deserve the best

i wish i could be the best

“Its over”

“pussy”

“shut the fuck up”

“fuck you”

“useless”

“shit”

Words that scar, and break you down to another level.

Life is fucked up. When you’re stuck in a world of decisions, yet you dont know what to do. When you’re in a room filled with people that are suppose to care about you, you feel alone. It feels quite alone. You want this, you want that, but sometimes things just dont work out. I dont know whether to accept this or not. You’d fight for something yet you dont want one to hurt anymore. When all you want is this person to be happy, you bring them pain. I dont know how to fight for something like this. I cant bring you happiness. What is there to do. I always tell myself that I would fight for you, no matter what. Because you want them. and them to be happy, yet nothing goes as well as things seem. Fight for your one and only, fight for your soul mate. Also to make them happy, yet. All i bring is pain. How can one fight, when someone is just feeling pain all over. When you cant bring them happiness anymore. All that has run dry. When everything comes falling down on you. When you’ve literally ran out of all the opportunities you were given. How can you do anything. Over and over again you just give them some sort of pain, maybe I just cant do it. Maybe im not the person that makes you genuinely happy. Yet I feel genuinely happy whenver i see you. Just by a look, Just by a touch, just by hearing your voice. All i want is for you to be happy. I guess im not the joy bringer i always thought i could be. I cant do things for you even when you request it. Here or not, ill be upset. But knowing you’re happy.. is all ill ever need. It’ll break me apart, but thats all i’ll ever need. I’m lost, I’m stuck. I only could ever ask for one thing and one thing only, for you to be happy. Wherever you are. If you’re happy.. thats all that matters to me. I’ve never felt like this before. But i feel a sense of giving up, a part of me falling apart. Burning away with the smoke. No, not giving up. More like wanting you to have a better life. All your insecurities, i should be aware of by now, i should be there to tend you. But i cant. You dont want me there, and i’ve got nothing left, i know i have nothign left. I’ve got no words for you. Everything you hear will just be lies, maybe this will be the end of us. Just because you’ll never trust me again or even give me a chance. My love wont change. It never has, everytime i see you, its like i’ve fallen in love again and again. Every moment, ill try to be watching over you. I’ll make sure you wont know either. Just because i know you wouldnt want me near you.

One small request, and I’ve failed to succeed. I’m truly sorry, but you dont deserve this bullshit from anyone. I cant be selfishly seeing you anymore just so i could be happy. I just want you to be free, happy and away from all this garbage. I know. This is something i’ve never wanted. Never ever ever ever wanted. But it doesnt seem like i can bring you any more smiles, or laughs. Which breaks my heart.

Take care of yourself please, I’m sorry for ever sticking around for you to receive this shit. I always want to be around to take care of you and make you smile, and laugh and feel good about yourself. But i guess my sun burned out.

I’m sorry you ever had to deal with anything like this.

My Princess, live in wealth, royalty, peace, and genuine happiness.

I Love You.

See you around

forever83

im falling apart.

whats sleep when you sit there burning away slowly

forever

83

i hate.

so much

always ending up in tears

this shit.

i actually love

sandra woo

fucking assumptions.

when things arent right, i will be unmotivated to do anything;

my room is messy.

sleepless

dont let this get to you, keep your emotions out of it for now. remember, shes your only one.

ouch~